Quoc's Web Journal

ACTION ACTION ACTION!!!

So, a big character defect that I have is "lack of action." So, I've already established that with my therapist a week or 2 ago... That I have both the fear of failure, the fear of success, and the fear of change... HOLY MOTHER OF GOD, I am a wreck!!! On a question where one is only privileged to one answer out of the multiple choice question, I would force "d" all of the above!!! That is currently what I believe to be the TRUTH of who I am and where I stand in my life.

Remember yesterday's plan of action? Well, it all went according to schedule! I went and escorted my beloved Vannettes around Hollywood and Highland. We just strolled around. The guys were frustrated by walking around and not having any money to buy anything. Boy do I agree with that feeling!!! I was able to touch bases with each of the fellas with regard to where they were and was able to share about where I was. I learned from each of the Vannettes about if in doubt, ask for help and for directions! Thank you "M" for that lesson! And also, another Vannette, "S", checked me on just wanting to fix by spending money on just frivolous unnecessaries! I love it!!! I am in the right place and indeed I am with the right people!!!

After going home, I decided to take a nap from 6-7PM before commencing upon cleaning up my room and working on my 4th step... Next thing I know, I woke up at 11:15PM! Argh!!! Ok, my body was indeed tired... I feel really guilty that I did not get my paperwork for housing with "R" with Project New Hope. Not only that, I didn't get a chance to clean up my room, nor did I do anything else for that matter.

I prayed last night and this morning, turning my will and my life over to the care of my Higher Power! So, maybe I have already been blessed with willingness. Maybe the ball is now in my courts and it's up to me to act on it! The door has been unlocked and the door even held ajar for me... Now it's up to me to push the door and walk through! So, I will be gentle with myself as I am very hard on myself and very self-critical!

I reaffirm to just do a little each day and give thanks for what I have done each day! I will continue to do my best... That is all I can humanly do!

Action, action, action!!!

Quoc@quoclam.com

P.s. - I received a wonderful e-mail from a former stranded traveler from England. Thank you for the very kind remark about my web log. I would love to stay in touch with you so I may have a tour guide should I decide to travel out to Great Britain in the future to come. I am very envious that you were able to travel to sooo many places!!! Wow, what a whirlwind of an adventure you must have had! I counted no less than 10 states that you went to in a very short period of time! Best wishes to you and safe journey as you continue on your path with life... Again, thank you for your very kind remarks about my "eloquent" writing...

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